having too much fun let loose in Sephora.
things have been Very Bad in my head the last few days
mostly due to extenuating circumstances but also the nobody-cares-any-more soap saga of me needing therapy and medical care i can’t afford to access and deteriorating because of it
so i’m torn between the need to apologise to everyone and the need to ask people to be very gentle and kind with me right now (i want to be touched and held but there’s no one in this whole state i know well enough to trust) and things are not well
sorry for ignoring people and acting erratically and things i am trying to get better